amateur

I suppose I realised
I didn’t actually love you when 
I was sitting on rock bottom 
and glancing up at you. 
You returned my smile and 
I realised you knew nothing 
about me and what I was 
going through.
And worst of all,
I didn’t want to worry 
your pretty little heart.

My most honest poem

I’ve always hated morning texts.
I’m not one to stay the night
just so I can avoid the company
the next day.
Everything good that happens in the P.M. 
dies early in the A.M.
I won’t love you in the morning,
no matter how hard I try
to convince us both otherwise.

I won’t love you tomorrow 
morning or the morning after that.
But if you kiss me good night
and let me go
I promise to love you
now. 

it took me 1 minute to realize
you weren’t chasing after me.
it took me 2 hours to realize
you weren’t going to text me back.
it took me 3 days to realize
you were on holidays elsewhere.
4 years it took me to realize
it’s a heart you lack